Lessons From Going Home
I am once again here, there, and everywhere. I found myself received back to central Ohio with trust and love after 18 months away. I know that my disappearing thing isn’t easy for most people to understand; it’s not easy for me to understand, either.
I'm trying to quit burning bridges, trying to be softer and kinder and more generous every day. Trying to understand and provide understanding, to be understood. I’m trying to do good work and keep it fucking real.
It occurred to me early one morning on this trip that I often resent my volatile creativity, and I’ve been trying to figure out where it and I stand going forward. I sobbed at the kitchen table with my mom and admitted to her that I’ve been frustrated and exhausted through the turn of another season in my life.
I know I'm not alone in this, I hold space daily with clients who are brilliant humans who feel the same often. We feel the push-pull of trying to sort out the mess of ourselves in relation to the mess of the world around us.
We need to write, and we need to not write, we need to weave new worlds and we need to exist in the one we’re currently of; a paradox I'm pretty sure we'll never escape, and that's okay as long as we know how to manage it.
I'm learning how to manage it as a necessary catalyst of maturation; onward.
I’m learning to be even more articulate, even more intentional in the way that I wield my tongue, my words wrapping themselves inside my vessel, twisting and turning, weaving and wanting to be heard and felt. I am honing my Gemini gifts and it’s no wonder, with 5 placements in Gemini, that my obsession with communication reigns.
And… My work is evolving as a natural outcome of these changes. I feel, more than ever, that writing and speaking must become a central focus in what I’m doing. Since the birth of Virtuish last summer, and with HAIRCRAFT coming this spring, I’m making the conversations I’ve been holding privately with friends and clients public, and I could not be more excited to see how these creative pursuits align with the more linear aspects of my work in business and leadership development.
Everything, everything is a big TBD.
Capricorn to Aquarius szn transition is always a big time in my life and I'm super grateful for the changes coming forth. I moved with the seasons from my midwestern familial home back to my home-now in California and it's interesting how these locations seem to represent astrologically what Cap & Aqua represent (there is some astrocartography evidence to support the experience that I’m having, also fucking fascinating).
Maybe it’s a good move for us to remind ourselves: Be cool. Take it easy, baby.